Happy Birthday

Last week was Mathieu’s 6th birthday!  We wish we could have celebrated with him, but we weren’t able to this year.  Never in a million years did we ever think God would call us to adopt.  After He did, never in a million years did we think we would be in the process for two years with no progress.  After my last post, most of you know that we have made no progress at all in the last two years.  We are at the very beginning of the process since our paperwork wasn’t turned in until November 2012.  A lot of people have still been asking for updates.  Well,  we don’t really have any updates.  They told us that 3 documents were missing from our dossier (paperwork packet).  We have spent two months now going around in a BIG OLE circle to be right back at the beginning with 3 missing documents.  We are praying, and hope you will too, that we are able to get duplicate copies of those 3 documents quickly.  After that, who knows.  I will no longer try to predict anything because I really have no clue.

We try to keep our faith each day, but some days are really hard.  We know we are to glorify God even in these hard times.  We try to do so, but some days we fail- miserably.  We get so frustrated that we do and say things that definitely aren’t glorifying to God, and we really don’t mean them.  A dear friend had to recently check us on this.  He told us to stop feeling like we are in control.  Give it to God.  He will be faithful in His promises.  Our friend told us that this is not a battle between us and other people.  This is a spiritual warfare.  The enemy is attacking.  “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”  John 10:10  “Be self-controlled and alert.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.”  1 Peter 5:8  We are refusing to let the devil steal our joy.  There were a few weeks when Peyton and I were starting to go against each other, but we have since regrouped and prayed a lot.  We know this is all part of our growing process.  People are quick to say how “lucky” Mathieu is to be getting a family.  We disagree in so many different ways.  First, he had to lose his own family in order for this to even be possible.  That doesn’t seem lucky to me.  But also, we know God could have chosen many different ways to care for Mathieu.  He is God.  He could have chosen anything really, but he chose US.  God chose US to care for Mathieu.  God chose US to use this process to completely change our lives.  We went from being totally set on material “things” like houses, cars, beach trips, and even the aspiration of a yacht (that was Peyton haha) to now being totally satisfied, and excited, to take our vacation to Haiti spending time in 90 degree plus weather with no air conditioner, no hot water to shower, and mosquitos galore sharing the news with other people what God has done to change our life.  Telling others how great our God is and how to follow Him.  And one day… one day… Mathieu will be home with us, and we can live life as a family sharing with Him all that God did to bring us together.  It sounds to me like WE are the “lucky” ones.

It is so hard for other people (and us) to understand why God won’t bring Mathieu home now, but we know God is still using this time.  “And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast.” 1 Peter 5:10

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4 responses to “Happy Birthday

  1. Adoption is such a roller coaster and as someone that has lost a referral in the adoption process it is such a blessing that in Haiti u can visit.ur child multiple times instead of waiting to see them again in heaven so remember to thank.God.that ur child.WILL eventually come home!

  2. I get it. I do. I am a soon-to-be mother to a nearly 6 year old boy living in Haiti. Although I seem to be farther along in this journey, I get simply get it. I get everything you are saying. I just get it. After two year in this process and not sure where our ending is, the rollercoaster is unbearable some days. At this point, I don’t even update family or friends because I simply can’t. I don’t have the energy and I am sick of getting my hopes up. I have questioned this process with God many times. I wish I could offer you hope that I know something you don’t about this process that will make it go quicker, but I don’t. Just know there is someone out there living your emotions too. You are not alone. Thank you for blogging so that I know there is someone feeling the way I do.

  3. Thanks for posting! Praying for you guys. I can’t even imagine how hard this is. Thanks for your honesty in this super tough situation. I love the part about God totally transforming your desires. M isn’t even home yet, and he’s already impacted your lives in so many ways. I know that so many blessings are to come. Love you both!

  4. I stumbled upon your blog as I was searching for families adopting from Haiti. My husband and I hope to begin the process as soon as the new adoption laws go through…. Lord willing! I can imagine how agonizing the waiting process is and just wanted to let you know that I cried out to The Lord on your behalf. May He move mountains swiftly n miraculously to bring your Mathieu home!

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